Why would someone leave behind their home along with everything and everyone they have ever known to go to a large and expensive city, with no job prospects, very little money and to incur $50k in debt? That is a great question.
The short answer is that I am a reckless idealist.
The long answer is a little more involved. There have been many influential educators and experiences in my life. If I had to start with just one influential teacher, it would have to be Ms. Marilyn Berman. She taught high school courses in Women's Studies, Film, Psychology, Law, etc. The class discussions and readings where a refreshing change from the sexist and racist banter of my peers at the time. These classes were the most challenging and intellectually satisfying classes I had yet taken. I soon became close with Ms. Berman (who was a radical feminist in the 60's). The books that I read in my high school years seem precocious too me now, but started me on a path. At the time I wanted nothing but more of the radical ideas and intellectual stimulation and began borrowing books from her classroom collection, including Ann Moody's, "Coming of Age in Mississippi" and Claude Brown's, "Manchild in the Promised Land". Outside of class I picked up some radical books such as Abbie Hoffman's, "Steal This Book", Hunter S. Thompson's, "Fear and Loathing on the Campaign Trail '72" and James Loewen's, "Lies My Teacher Told Me."
Ms. Berman was not the only influential teacher that I had. Mr. Kepple, who taught Modern American History, allowed us to draw historical connections in US foreign policy decisions. Mr. Kepple taught us about "Domino Theory" and U.S. cold war policies, which gave us some context for the following year when the U.S. was attacked with domestic airliners. Mr. Macinini was my star science teacher. He taught Earth Science and Astronomy (among other courses). Both of which I took and absorbed with gusto. It is because of Mr. Macini that I remain scientifically literate. Even if that literacy is limited to reading Sci-pop magazines like Seed or maintaining the ability to point out constellations in the night time sky or that I still remember nerdy factoids like; 1 A.U. is equal to the distance from the Sun to the Earth which is equal to about 93 million miles and it takes the light from the Sun approximately 8 minutes to reach the Earth (so if the Sun blew up, we wouldn't know for 8 whole minutes).
Context was something that I subconsciously craved, the majority of my education seemed out of context. The teachers that I am most influenced by gave me the context to make the important connections.
I was an early radical and angry adolescent. Although I wasn' t old enough to vote in 2000, I wanted to vote for Ralph Nader and paid attention to the fall out of the election including G.W.'s gift from cousin Jeb and the Supreme Court. (Thinking about this now, I think it is hilarious that any high school sophomore would want to vote for Ralph Nader, but I did.) The politics and events of the following eight years combined with my undergrad education at UMass Boston, a public (and very liberal institution) all added fuel to my fire. Outside of class assignments I was reading authors like, Howard Zinn, Assata Shakur and Emma Goldman. I also began frequenting many of the independent movie theaters around Boston. The independent movie theaters were where documentaries began poisoning my mind. My favorite documentary to this day is still The Corporation , which I saw at the Kendal Square Theater in Cambridge, MA.
Despite my early hatred for politicians and the entire political process I reluctantly decided to take a Political Science class. Needless to say, I fell in love with the field and finished my degree in Poli Sci. As part of the required reading, all the Poli Sci students had to read the New York Times every day. The stark difference between what I read and what I saw on TV news infuriated me. The Bush administration had gotten away with so much law breaking and so little of it was actually discussed on TV news. On a day-to-day basis one could witness the HUGE differences in reporting. It was then that I really started to understand the intersection of money and control within the political and media apparatus. I understood it before, but I felt more like a conspiracy theorist without any reasonable basis for my beliefs.
Although I was an early radical, I was afraid of collectivism and disliked many of the options for campus involvement at UMass. There was the Socialist Alternative, which was stuck in the rut of a Soviet book discussion group. It took me about 3 months to realize that they were zealots of a romantic fantasy based movement and had no intentions of doing any pragmatic service, i.e. food drives, shelter work, voter registration, letter writing campaigns, etc. In the end I road with them to a few anti-war protests in NYC and Washington DC and ignored them on campus. (In a recent update, I heard the shamelessly overtook the UMass Boston Human Rights Working Group. The S.A. members joined it, outnumbering the original members of the H.R.W.G. and voted to make it a part of the S.A., so now they can have rhetorical arguments about human rights AND socialist utopias, marvelous.)
As a Political Science undergraduate I interned at the MA State House. During my internship the constitutional convention on gay marriage took place and was passed in Massachusetts. I volunteered at The Pine Street Inn homeless shelter. One summer I traveled to Montana for two weeks to volunteer for Project Vote Smart. These were early signals of me wanting to turn my ideals into action.
My intellectual interests were somewhat varied. I took on Spanish and Economics as two separate minors and joined the International Relations certificate program. Our Economics department at UMass teaches a heterodox curriculum. Heterodox meaning they teach Classical Economics and everything else including labor, environmental and many other areas of economic analysis. In my third year I traveled to Cuernavaca, Mexico for a winter semester where I studied Spanish, but also got a valuable lesson from all of my teachers at the Universal Spanish School about Mexican politics and culture.
After completing a thesis on the civil war in Sudan, I graduated from UMass. Beside it being a mammoth undertaking and thus a test of my will, I learned a lot about neo-colonialism, extractive economies and civil wars fueled by Western consumption. I also met two people from different regions of Sudan who gave me first hand insight and understanding of the conflict, none of which I would've learned in my normal course of study.
After graduating I quickly evolved into a media junky. Two Februaries ago I became a member at my local community access TV station and started my own live call in show. On The Soap Box , my co-host and I would comment on current events and theory, but in a very casual and often pundit-tastic manner. Every day I watched DemocracyNow!. I also began writing for Spare Change News (a small newspaper that is part of the Homeless Empowerment Project in Boston and Cambridge). While working for them I got to meet and interview Amy and David Goodman. Amy was my latest and greatest indie heroine. What she had built with DemocracyNow! was quite a feat and something to be admired. Her influence definitely pushed me toward media activism.
An even bigger reality check/ motivational jump kick came in summer 08, when my father was arrested for a retroactive anti-immigration law. He was imprisoned for over 6 months while being constantly threatened with deportation. The law itself is retroactive with no statute of limitations and in my view is double jeopardy (double jeopardy only counts for citizens) because his time was paid way back in 1979. We rallied everyone we could, fought the system and eventually won. The government coming into my parent's house and forcefully removing him with NO NOTICE added a personal flair of injustice to my already agitated political persuasion.
Now my educational goal is to learn solid production and research skills in order to create engaging advocacy media and to learn theory in order to be an educator of media literacy. Ultimately I want to engage the two in order to refresh civic engagement within the political/economic process on a large scale. Currently, I am working with Witness.org and see myself getting involved with youth media education some time in the next year.
In ten years I will be working in the same city I live in, hopefully somewhere back in my home state of MA. I will take public transportation and live in a tiny apartment due to my crushing tuition debt and my lust for All Natural American Spirits. I will be working for a public high school, community access TV station or a public university where I most likely will be the Union Representative. I will teach my students the possibilities of using the many tools at their disposal for local involvement and participation while very much being civically engaged myself. Perhaps I will write a short book about the intersection of pedagogy and phenomenology, and I will have a cat named, "Camus".